a place to lay your heart.

On the run


towards aspirations


overcoming


temptations


transformation


mind on


constant rotation


no time for


hesitation


or frustration.


Focus - drive - motivation


EXPECTATIONS.


Better than the last


faster  then the next


trying to think less complex.


Smarter - harder - fresher


pressure.


Them - we - when ?


Me.


It's alright, I got this, but you know what would be nice?
To put this head to rest
on a soft chest
just once a week.
Or maybe twice. 

-2012-

'WE ARE CAPABLE OF SO MUCH LOVE

YET SO MUCH HATE

AS MUCH DESTRUCTION

YET SO MUCH CREATION.

IT'S EVERY GENERATIONS INHERITANCE TO MAKE THE WORLD TO THEIR LIKING


Sex & Philosophy

If what you got is deep in just one way
shut up and let me go - HEY!

not gonna happen.

#resources

until vs it's over

songs in my head

things that's been said

ways I did you wrong

selfishness vs moving on

emptiness vs holding on

moving forward vs staying true

me being me vs you being you

this hate me hold me  is killing us slowly

and the easy way out is not in our hands

we keep spinning around, not making sense

I guess the reason why love in us survives

is precisely because it isn't wise

hello winter.

 

Ok, the first snowflakes hit the ground today, I guess I can't deny it any longer. It's
winter. Slowly but surely we have to take those cosy winter coats and scarfs out the
boxes and put them back in the closet. It's amazing what you find in their pockets.
Notes, checks, little pieces of paper and that earring you've been looking for all
summer. And with them you find places and people and sometimes when you dig
deep enough, you'll find last winters emotions and in the best case their memory
puts a smile on your face. And then there's that moment when you have to decide
whether to put all that back in your pocket or throw it away. Maybe you decide to
sort it out later and carry them around for a bit, but after a while they get all mixed
up with the new stuff that you put into your pockets and every time you reach into
your pocket, you spend aaaaages just to try and get your shit in order and you end
up forgetting what you were looking for in the first place.

 

I also figured that memories and emotions can be some heavy shit, even if you put
them deep down into the darkness of your pocket, at some point the weight of your
coat is gonna drag you down. Of course you could just take the coat off. That might
be the easiest way to get rid of the weight but  there will be a winter next year and
you will have to deal with it again once the temperature drops. So you might as well
just dig your pockets for the extra baggage and sort out what is trash and what is
worth keeping. Letting go of something is hard, even of something you didn't think
about all summer.


I will start this winter with empty pockets.
I think.
What about you?


ich gruesse alle die ich kenne